i have to say

i like to see you smile

=)

wonder where will the bottle go from jumeirah beach...

Please do not take the entry seriously =)

I don’t need to pretend anymore

If only I knew its easy to let go, I won’t waste a year to forget,
Nor to feel lost without shadow of yours.
Read all ur texts when I missed your words
Bought the same shampoo when I missed smell of your hair
Look at the moon, hoping you do the same when I missed time we had together

But now, after years past
After so many people came and left
Im scared to let go everything easily

I just miss to be miserably crazy over a girl.

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Final call home
3 years in transit a flight away from home is coming to an end. Hopefully 2010 summer is the last summer here..
I will not be seeing people pray besides the highway because my people prefer to stop at small madrasah or mosque along the highway for prayers.
I will not be seeing the biggest mall, the tallest building, the most luxury horse race, the only 7 stars hotels, hot wheels; cayenne, maserati, porche, ferrari instead there be a lot of protons and perodua. Maybe vios?
Waiting for the boarding pass…

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I don’t know what makes me decide to go home
A visit to Mekah will end my Middle East chapter..
=)

movies~

i watched 3 movies on my way back to dubai from johannesburg..

500 days of summer (not a love story and I didnt really get what was the story all about)..., bandslam (just because Vanessa Hudgens was in) and Frost (my favourite, to see a player changed after his childhood sweetheart is engaged...)

I'm not good with words...

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i had the whole cinema hall to myself tonight, actually i didnt expect the room to be empty and only left myself alone...dear john suppose to be a romantic story from bestselling novel...well maybe they didnt read the book before... =)

savannah in the movie is beautiful, same as how i pictured her to be...
john, as loyal as he is in the novel..

I like the movie until 9/11 scene was in the picture and it somehow disturbed me with the big sam propaganda.... =)

no offense, but its better not to have the scene...it was never in the novel, not that i can remember...

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teka

cuba teka siapa telah berkata-kata dialog di bawah

"dah memang patut jadi bapa budak dah..."

kalau betul, anda memang hebat!

like this part

"And I love you. Things need to change. We both need to change. Mostly, I think, we need to get back to being good to each other. What were those vows we took? I meant them when I said them. I think you did, too. We just lost them along the way. Love, honour, cherish, respect. I want to get them back."

from "The girl next door...."by Elizabeth Noble

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If you are lost and you need to choose animal (s) to be with you, assist/follow/show you the way out...What will you choose?

Well, I chose an eagle and a deer... =)

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What come after t is special, dont let the t drop~

The painting job

one, 2, 3, four~

Tired of counting endless sheeps, I got off the bed and wrote these craps..

List as below =)

1. Still think, becoming VIP is still the proper term to use. Or not?
2. Had a confusing morning chat or more to texting?
3. Venus can be a good drama director, or an actress? =P Don’t get offended ya!
4. Ohh Wednesday, ohh Thursday…
5. Chilled at Chillis, I was craving for chicken wings…
6. Now you are here, now you are not…Recall chipsmore advert? Anyone?
7. Lets have a normal conversation, please
8. Going home (short trip on the 4th week of April), arriving KUL on Saturday..
Wait me at the KLIA?
9. O Town, all or nothing was played in Chillis… followed by like a rose by Westlife
10. What is engagement?
11. Adik, where is our karaoke song list?
12. No iphone, no more blackberry for you... Stick to the cheap phone, at least no one gonna take that from you...muhahaha!! Thou iphone at virgin is.....NICCEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeee
13. I read your note two..
14. Taj Mahal?
15. Need Thai massage..
16. Need new shoes...
17. Need to stop here =P
18. MH 161 is transit in Karachi =P

hey, happy birthday March babies

happy birthday tho u chose to celebrate in the office doing work! haha

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To whom it may concern,

Didnt mean to ignore, just to put some space there...
Lets kill all confusion

I got your point from the last chat
You be okay there...

p/s - im not kidding, hate me please =)
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planning a come back
soon

u got it bad

Baby how am I supposed to trust you when you can't tell your friends that I'm your boo.

Do anything for you, show you that my love is true, how long's it gonna take for me to pursue?

Coz I knew it from the start all I wanted was your heart, if there's one fear that I have it's us being apart.

Don't you try and hide the feelings that you have inside, i'm not here to make you cry, it's your choice now you decide.

If lovin you was a crime tell me would you press charges? Put up a barricade or would you lead me where your heart is?

Wanna know your feelings now before we get started, like Black Eyed Peas you got me goin retarted.

We startin on the phone talkin' every single night, everything seemed alright before we had our first fight.

You would reject all my calls and not reply to my text, some would say I was obssessed you put a bullet through my chest.

That night I couldn't sleep my mind was runnin' with thoughts, where you were, who you were with, i've never felt so distraught.

I'd never felt so unwanted so from that day on, I locked my heart and threw the key I started writin you this song.

My emotions filled the ocean was it love or was it hate, my consecration now erased my heart begins to disinflate.

source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-E8G0b_MKfM

signs

[GENERAL INFO]

guys will justgo away for these reasons:

1. You said, "its hard for me to be far from him..."
2. I dont know, and Im not sure answer
3. You were happy when he called...
4. Abusive conversation with "why" questions...should you know all the reasons behind?
5. Lies

To be continued...Hahaha

p/s- strictly for general info only

my name is tom!

26 this year, after all this while i still believe (or pretend) being 25 this year...owh how i wish the number stay at 25...

p/s - good news is, i still have 270 days to be 26 and 360 days more being 26...still young!

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I heard and seen enough

Think about it, "Life is fair, people are not..." so stop blaming life

p/s - naahh, im not blaming

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Sharing....

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Please share this with other "Golf Balls"
I just did......

glen

maybe i dont know what i want

yes,

maybe im too young to know what i want
cos, i dont know what will happen..

p/s - still admiring prosperous view from the window...

life crisis everyone, =) muhahaha

Prosperous Istanbul

Set free something you love as love is not an ownership. It is a common idialic philosophy in Hollywood movies, or in teenagers love novels, but it takes courage to just do and be as it is.
I had let many bypasses, left when it just hurt my half. Many didn’t confront their feelings but I know from their eyes, few cried unwillingly when distance was part of the condition, there were situation when people changed but hey, it is not pointing fingers game, not blaming anyone. Maybe the time has yet to come to slow things down, though I promised not to waste more time.

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I have been thinking to change career due to many reasons, and I keep my options to three:

a. wanting to go home, start my base there and venture out when there is opportunity in future. It may supplement my August plan, to manage and let things run and MBA part time plan. Yet, is there anything for me back there?

b. wanting to change workplace and stay working abroad. It’s not because of the glamorous status, anywhere what is so glamour living as second class citizen in the working class community. Example, it’s like working class in Turkey, who waits busses or ferry to commute, or walking down the street, surviving with high cost of living with taxes, utility expenses and stiff competitions. A Turkish friend commented that life in Malaysia is easy, I was shocked at first but agreed to his statement after few conversation. A normal middle class family in Malaysia still can afford a nice place to live, nice car to drive, a maid to clean the house and send children to private tuition after school.

c. to remain and stay as it is. It is my last wish as Im getting bored with thing Im doing. Bit a bit, im getting frustrated, what I want is, I want more responsibility….I know I am able to do so…

Which one to choose?
Let me tell you, I don’t knowI don’t know how future will beI don’t know where I be end up in the next 2 yearsI don’t know what I be doing in the next 2 years
What I know is, I don’t want to regret decision I make today..

p/s – admiring prosperous view....

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Turkey, oh Turkey
Lets bid goodbye… =)

bumpy ride, toin toing

i was entertained by figures and analysis...well that is a fact...

to have assumption, to prove the assumption is correct, to had figure out the concrete basis...no, no i wont trade anything for this...

God, thank you...i really need a new toy to play...

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lets get to know a lawyer week..

i have the opportunity to flirt chat / know a lawyer...intesresting to see how a lawyer view things....how they get excited when they won a case and feel down when everything is against them....

to me lawyer is like a story teller, difference is they make themselves a hero or a victim in the story...thats' all! =) hahaha

to the lawyer, its ok to loose a case...once a while

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istanbul then beirut
yeh, a chance to visit beirut
and meet my pet sister there...

p/s - i have a lebanese pet sister...single, and pretty! hahaha anyone?

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a hahh, caught you, well i think it was you...
or if it wasnt you...

let me welcome a blog reader from india~ =)

p/s- how is india?

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i might be bz next week...
or next couple of weeks..
but i promise to call you...

just miscall when you are back =)

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migrain again?, 2 mugs of coffee..
nice~

hati dua

cuba untuk tulis tentang ni
tak boleh, macam mana?
hany tukar topik!
kenapa yer, macam kabur nak tulis apa..

=) mungkin penat

oh, dia hilang~

hati

*random topic from hany...now~

hati

fullstop, dapat?

instinct, just instinct...

sensitive is not moody..
sensitive is aware of any changes and to adopt well =)

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having said, i changed the blog layout after a chat with hany...its just instinct things will happen this way, so let it be...

certain rules are not meant to be broken...and that definitely refers to ego rules by ad.. =)

p/s - still thankful to know now than later =)

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above is one of my instinct that will happen to me...the next is still wait to see, but strongly i feel and started to believe dubai is just a transit, and people usually wont stay long in transition....

p/s- going to turkey on 18 - 20 feb.... =) simply turkey

wishing well..

my wishes are:


1. More movies like sepet, sepi, gubra in Malaysia, not because Im like soooo much sharifah armani acting...but the movies are good =P
2. Money was not being invented / created....many life were taken because of greediness..
3. Men and women are from earth...can we understand each other without special ability like mind reading needed.
4. Last but not least, I wished not to sleep the whole day today...counting sheep..

im an actor,

Live is a big stage with unlimited audience, if actor is not limiting the horizon.

It has beauty in script that words are out from the actor’s heart, how he feels; anger, frustration, happy, misery (name them all) for all reasons it can be. The feelings are like icing on a cake, add flavours to life’s routine.

On that basis, I am an actor in my stage surrounded by names I will not mention here. They know who they are.

There are 3 different episodes, first is the working life drama where people claim myself as heartless, direct, not a bullshit taker, robot?. The next episode is the non office hours storyline, and the actor is trying to be a good son, a not too garang eldest brother (seriously im not), great friend and useful citizen. The last episode is when the actor need to be alone, to reflect his life, the present, past and future.

The love episode is still pending for script to be approved by the censorship authority.